"Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God
and our Saviour Jesus Christ"
As you are all very aware of by now we are facing some things that may be leading us or those around us to feel uneasy, COVID-19. During the early days of this situation I shared on my Instagram page @onechildseyes that if my mom were still alive she would have called me and totally gone crazy about it all. Thankfully she didn't have to experience this time but is happy and whole waiting for me with our Savior!
At this present moment many lives are vastly different than they were just two weeks ago. Being a stay at home homeschooling mom, my life and the lives of my children haven't changed much. We continue to school and pretty much the only change is our loss of extracurricular activities and church services besides what is online. My husband has continued to work and some days many long hours at the hospital preparing others that he works with. That was until this past week when 4 of his close quartered co workers tested positive for this said virus. My husband was sent home and scheduled to be tested. Thankfully his first test came back negative but due to even later exposure at work he needs to be retested tomorrow. You might say that would be enough to make someone scared.
I wont lie and say that I haven't had an emotional time. I've been emotional, I've been emotional about my husband going to work and maybe contracting the virus, especially having been a widow. I've been emotional about my husband bringing the virus home especially to my 13 year old son who is highly susceptible to pneumonia. I've been emotional about how my husband should be very careful with his self isolating during this time. I've been emotional about watching my children literally cry because they cant hug their dad, cuddle with him to watch a movie, sit next to him for dinner, or to watch church. That is emotional right there! I've been emotional about wanting to be there for loved ones during very hard times but due to this not being able to. I've been emotional about not knowing how loved ones are doing through this time. I've been emotional through so much more than that, so yes I have been emotional.
However, after going through so many hard things in life I have learned that I can feel those emotions and not allow them to control me. Do I always do this perfectly? Nope! Do I still need to work on it? Of course! I am doing my best to trust the Lord. I remind myself of all of the other things He has brought me through. I remind myself of the time He became my father when I didn't know mine. I remind myself of the time He provided when I had needs. I remind myself of the time He put a check in the mail when I doubted He could or would. I remind myself of His word, His promises, His blessings!
He is a faithful God, a loving God, a victorious God! He has not been surprised by this situation we are all facing. More importantly, He is allowing it for a reason. I am not saying He caused it but if we believe the Bible then we agree that nothing can happen without his approval. Just like anything else, this can be used for good or for bad! How will you purpose to use it?
Each day for whatever reason the scripture at the top of this page keeps popping up in my mind and heart. I believe its a reminder. I believe it is a reminder to not be so focused on all that is going on around us. As a Christian, this world is not our home. Do we live here? Yes. Do we still need to care for our families and life situations? Of course. But I do believe we can do those things while looking for that blessed hope and most importantly glorious coming of Christ! As Christians we need to remain focused!
Another scripture that continues to come to mind is Isaiah 38:1 where Isaiah is telling Hezekiah to set his house in order. Now, no one wants to think of dying, I understand that. But let me tell you, I have dealt with it with loved ones and one day it will visit me as well as you. I believe that we have been given this time, a gracious time to make sure our homes are in order. Along with that I believe that us being quarantined to our homes is the best place for this time for obvious reasons. When I say "our house in order", I don't mean as in clean and organized, yet I do love that in a house. More importantly I mean that those in your house are saved, your family, loved ones, friends, neighbors.
One of the things that I have been most emotional about this past week is the heart of my children. I hadn't even connected this until today when talking with my grandmother. I have just felt so strong about it and then that verse from Isaiah came out of my mouth. I have been trying to set my house in order without really realizing it. I've also come to the realization that there is only so much we can do as parents and the rest is up to God! I am thankful that I can say that each of my children, my husband, and myself all belong to God. I can also say that everyone in our family belongs to God or has at least been introduced to Him (prayerfully accepting at some point). The rest of this "stuff" is just hay, wood and stubble. What matters most is the people!
So I ask you tonight, What are you focusing on? How can I pray for you? Is your house set? Do you have the victory? Are you ready for HIS GLORIOUS APPEARING?